I began this blog two years ago… 24 months ago…730 days ago…17520 hours ago. Ok, you get the idea.
For the most part, things have been pretty normal around home. I still relish my role of housewife to Linda and enjoy cooking and cleaning.So it shouldn’t have surprised me when Linda wanted to discuss this topic yesterday.
I must point out that I am a BIG Indianapolis Colts fan ( I am rushing to finish this blog entry because the game starts in 15 minutes). Linda mentioned that if the Colts get into the Super Bowl we should have a Super Bowl party for our friends and family. I got excited about this and immediately mentally preparing menus for the occasion. Then she dropped the bombshell.
“That would be the perfect occasion to let everyone know about our wife-led marriage and your role as my wife and housewife,” she proceeded to explain. “You could finally come out to everyone as Beverly. I think most have already guessed that, but this would be the chance to show them once and for all.”
I am sure I will have many mixed emotions confronting me as I watch the game today.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
The other night I was busy working on a project so Linda offered to make dinner for us. It was a surprising offer because, over the last four years, I could count on one hand the number of times she has cooked. Since I stay home, it has become my responsibility to do the cooking and I take great pride in having a warm, tasty meal on the table when she gets home from work.
I found myself having mixed feelings about her offer. Part of me was glad that she was allowing me to continue working on the project (it was work related, not something I was just puttering around with). However, the other part of me was resentful that she was messing around in MY KITCHEN! That was short-lived when, within five minutes of her starting dinner, she was asking me where I kept various things: mixing bowl, measuring cups, the stove.
It’s little things like this that reinforce the roles we have taken, that show us how much we take for granite. I am happy and proud to be the housewife, cook, maid, and submissive partner to Linda. I am glad I am able to do these things for her, and for us. We have become better people because we have found our proper roles and purpose of life. It may not be right for anyone else, but it works for us.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I hope everyone survived the New Year and didn’t overdo it too much. I am happy to report that Linda and I had an enjoyable, for the most part anyway, time alone as well as with friends. Before I get into that I would be remised if I didn’t take a moment for selfish and personal pride to point out that our favorite sports team, the University of Iowa Hawkeye foot ball team, had an outstanding Orange Bowl appearance, winning 24-14 over Georgia Tech. Now we truly wish that we had been able to take the time to attend the activities in Miami. Plus, it would have gotten us out of the nasty winter we are experiencing right now.
We had an interesting New Year’s Eve. We hadn’t planned anything in advance because we weren’t sure if we were going to be home or lucky enough to travel to Florida. I know at least one guy who wished we would have made the trip, or at least Linda had.
Darryl called Linda several times last week trying to persuade her to fly down. He offered to pay for her airline ticket as well as secure bowl tickets. He even included paying my way if it meant getting Linda there. And she was going back and forth on her decision right up until Saturday. It was work commitments that finally convinced her not to go. More about that in a moment.
Because of this indecisiveness, we didn’t make any plans for New Year’s Eve. Thankfully, Linda’s best friend, Anna, called her on December 30th and convinced her that we should get together with her and her husband and do something to celebrate the New Year. The four of us went out to dinner, then back to their house to talk and bring in the new year. Everything was going well and we were all enjoying ourselves… until we got to their house.
As soon as we sat down with drinks in hand Anna asked if we had thought about going to Florida again this year. She and Ron knew all the details about what happen last year with Darryl and Linda as well as with Roger and me. Of course Linda told about Darryl’s offer which led to Anna teasing me about if I would let Linda go alone or if I wanted to go see Roger again. The conversation was quite embarrassing to me as it went from the cuckolding aspect of the arrangement to my crossdressing lifestyle. For some reason I find it more difficult to talk about ‘Beverly’ when I am in guy mode, and the grin on Ron’s face the whole time made the situation all that more difficult and embarrassing. He kept asking Linda questions about how she was getting along without her lover. At one point he asked her if she was planning on finding someone closer to home to take to bed.
“I have been thinking about it and have a few possible guys in mind,” Linda replied without looking at me. “Do you know of anyone who might be interested?” Then finally looking at me she added, “in either of us for that matter.”
“Oh, does that mean that Beverly is in need of a male suitor as well?” he inquired, looking me dead in the eye.
I almost died when Linda replied, “I think Beverly needs to keep working on her cock-sucking skills so she doesn’t lose her touch. Maybe you would be interested in that,” she teased him.
Ron started sputtering a hasty denial as Anna teased him. “What do you say Ron? Do you want to volunteer to let Beverly practice on you? You are always begging me for a blowjob. Maybe this would be a solution for both of us.”
Linda and Anna laughed as Ron and I refused to look at each other. Thankfully the subject was changed to more mundane topics.
Linda and I spent New Year’s Day relaxing at home, putting away the Christmas decorations, as well as relaxing together on the sofa watching old movies. I remember not too long ago when I would have been lobbying to watch all of the football games on the first day of a new year. But that was the furthest thing from my mind this year.
“Linda, I think we need to talk about what will be happening in the new year,” I hesitantly ventured when I brought her a glass of wine. “Are you really thinking about taking a lover? Someone from here?” I inquired.
“I think you are right. This is a good time to have a frank discussion,” she said. “Let’s start with what is happening with my job. As you know, there are going to be some big changes with my new position.”
I won’t go into details of what either of our jobs are or what they involve other than to say that our careers have evolved greatly and differently than either of us anticipated when we first got married. I am fortunate to work in a field that allows me to do consulting from my home with clients across the United States because of modern technology (internet/emails, overnight carriers, fax, and even face-to-face meetings via webcasting). Because of this, I am able to live in my feminine mode pretty much 24/7 now. This also led to me assuming the role of wife and housekeeper, which I love. When we were first married, I was the primary breadwinner and provider. Now, with me being home instead of working at a company, my income has not grown but my satisfaction has. Linda started out working for a small company that has grown very big and has allowed her the ability to grow and progress with it. She has just been promoted to a major management position with the next step being a vice-president. This new position is what she returned to after the holidays. She is now the primary wage-earner as well.
“I will be traveling now with this new position to the cities where our other branches are. This travel will require me to be gone for several days at a time. And I will be doing this every few months until we get everything running smoothly. That means that I will be away from home a lot more. And since you are now totally integrated into your role as the wife in our relationship, a role that I truly love seeing you in I might add, I will be needing a man in my life from time to time. Darryl has filled that role nicely this past year, but his trips are infrequent at best.” She looked at me for my reaction. Seeing nothing negative being communicated by me, she continued.
“As you very well know now, a woman has needs, needs that only a real man can fulfill. You have experienced that with Roger and Jesse so you can understand that I, too, have needs. So it’s only fair to let you know that I might from time to time find someone when traveling, or even locally, who can help me with my desires. You wouldn’t deny me that, would you?” she asked. My silent nodding my head signaling my acceptance. “You will always come first. I love you dearly and do not plan on leaving you. But I fully intend to have a healthy sex life as well, one that Beverly just cannot fulfill. Are we on the same page?”
Again, I silently nodded so she pushed forward.
“Over this next year I intend to have you move even further into your feminine role as it becomes more prominent in your daily life. You can expect our families, our friends, and the community to witness your immergence. No more hiding behind the safety of our front door. It’s time for Beverly to come out of her cocoon and soar. I know it is kind of scary and that you would rather live in secrecy, but for me to succeed in my new position I am going to need more freedom in my movements, and that means not having to worry if someone was to find out about our lifestyle choice. Understand?”
Again, a nod.
“Do you agree?”
“This is going to be a very interesting year for both of us. I know that I have your support and you should know that you have mine, totally, as well.”
A soft kiss sealed the deal as well as my fate. I am not sure what to expect or how quickly change will come. But I hope you will join me for the ride.
A new decade, indeed!