Friday, February 29, 2008

Oh oh!

Out of the blue, or so it seems to me, last night Linda asked me “where do you see this going?” She, of course, was referring to our wife led marriage with me being the housewife in our relationship. For the past three years I have taken on the role and tasks of caring for all of the household duties; grocery shopping, cooking and meal planning, cleaning, laundry, and ironing; while she concentrates on being the primary income provider. I also work out of the house as a marketing consultant so I too contribute to our income, just not as much as she does.

I thought that things have been going along pretty well since, in addition to doing the housework, I also am able to partake in my passion of crossdressing daily. Most days will find me working indoors in some kind of feminine finery, and often going all out with make-up and wig. I seem to be able to get so much more done when I am dressed up as Beverly. I am happy with our roles and thought she was too. So this question set me back… is she unhappy and wants to revert back to traditional roles, does she want things to change in some small way, or does she desire us to step things up dramatically? The way she asked and phrased the question gave me no clue so I asked “what do you mean?” Her reply was a cryptic “this weekend I think we should take some time to sit and talk about what each of us wants from this so there are no misunderstandings.”

On the surface that sounds pretty innocent, however, I can’t help to think that there are some undercurrents at play here. Needless to say I have been on pins and needles all day today. I know I shouldn’t read too much into it, but I can’t help myself. She suggested that each of us write down what we are thinking so it will be easier and clearer to present our thoughts and feelings.

Oh, well. Wish me luck! And you can bet I will be on my best behavior tonight and tomorrow morning.


Ms. Lily said...

I'm sure Linda just wants to make sure that you are both satisfied with the way things are going, and reevaluate expectations.
Good Luck!!!! I hope all goes well and we get a new post shortly letting us know that all is well.
Ms. Lily

Anonymous said...

Hi Bev

I'm dying to know what happened?